You probably thought that phrase on twitter from E was for you, because when I read it, it fits you so well. Everytime when it happens, you hide yourself in a dark area away from us. And when everything is fixed, you’ll come out and tell us that it’ll never happen again and that your sorry about it. Ask yourself one thing, how many times have it happen? Have we not tried to fix things up? Have we not tried to be there for you but ended up getting rejected? Did I not tried to remind you that day that we are your bestfriends and that we will always lend a listening ear if you ever need one. Again and again, we believed in you when you said you’ll change. Right at the end, when it happens, you’ll not run to us but your other friends and cousins. You allowed history to repeat itself not us. Every single time, when shit happens, I tried my best to put myself in your shoes and try to figure out why your like that. That is why, I’m always fixing the problems instead of being mad at you because I do understand why your like that.
I’ve never been that annoyed by you and your negativity. I realized something, it’s not your negativity that’s bringing you down. You can be happy, like when your with your boyfriend, that’s the only moment where your really happy. You don’t need a life-boat or a buoy or even us(if you even cared), all you need is him. However your brain works is off the wall, and it’s like a outlandish world to me. You always say we are just like her and that is why you don’t say stuff to us when your sad. That is what I don’t get. Problem is, we know your insecurities, we tried to get the phrase “we are here for you” into you but you never listen. And the aftermath of doing that for you was to get this “we are just like her”. You actually do sound like you dislike us a lot because we reminded you of her a whole lot. You make us look like the godawful ones, the ones that put you in mind of a past you never wanted to be reminded of. All you ever cared for was yourself, your boyfriend and your negativity that’s drowning us. The book that you hope existed won’t help you and save you from all your cynical thoughts. What you exactly need is to set yourself straight. Your favorite quote “everything happens for a reason”. The reason the same old thing keeps happening is because you allowed it to happen, we tried hard, you just didn’t know because you could care less. I’ve done enough on my part trying to let you know that I’ll be there no matter what. Sometimes, I do wonder if your calling us your bestfriends for the sake of calling it and not really treating us as one. It’s because when appalling stuffs happen, you never tell us, and it makes me feel that your certainty in us is a negative numeral. You should indeed feel tired finally and get over with crying already because if you don’t feel this way now and when we get things right on track again, everything will just fall apart eventually and you’ll get back to doing the same, it’s like a cycle, my accustomed cycle. Y’know, it’s going to be one last time I’m saying “it’s gonna be different this time” because I really am tired of this. Tired of repeating myself, this never-ending cycle, all the crying, all the quarrels, the negativity, the will to believe in your promises to us. I’m not going to cry over it then fix things well because I want you to understand that I am walking out of it. Whether you listen or not, for all I care, I just hope your well and take care. Bye.
Bestfriends are not just about one, it’s about everyone involved.